I was reading an article on a blog I visit frequently, the author of the article (and owner of the blog), Mitch Teemley, who is a Christian and also a film maker (and his posts are in my perception taking turns to be about worldly matters and issues and about Christian ones – his blog is very popular, many followers, check out the article I am referring to and the blog here if you like – and in this post,) he stated that he “avoids “Christianese” like the plague”.
This got me thinking – first about me… and about why I like it so much.
I actually have the exact opposite problem and many may consider me and my life extreme or (too) radical. I do ALL I can to avoid “Worldish” and people who speak it or speak it too much.
This is not easy at all, makes me seem a weirdo many times and even made me leave some churches (you may have followed my “church shopping tour” throughout the past weeks – or if not, you can read a few articles about it here on this blog), because they were for instance worshipping to music which was in my opinion too worldly and which in my perception did not glorify GOD.
And at work is another example.
That my job is not secure yet because my prison clearance hasn’t come through (after my previous manager, who was a witch somehow managed to cancel a clearance previously granted for 5 years!) is one thing…
It is clear that this circumstance amplifies my uneasiness and may make me perceive the situation as even worse or more intense as it is, because me not being cleared means that I can’t have keys and have to move around the prison like a prisoner.
I can’t go anywhere alone, someone has to take me through all the gates, someone who has keys, aka one of my colleagues, most of them are very young girls in their first job and the greatest majority of them is very “gangsta” and the conversations in the office go in very filthy, very, very worldly areas all the time when no manager is around.
Me, I am exposed to it, cannot leave – and believe me, there is no day when I don’t feel the urge to get out of this toxic, disgusting environment, because when they are not talking about sex or men or drugs or nails, they are complaining about the job, about people who are not there or about each other, fighting, provoking each other, trying to provoke me as well – it is like working in hell if there is such a thing as an office there.
At the same time, it is the job I feel called to do and when I speak to the prisoners, I totally feel aligned with my purpose and I can feel GOD’s presence and that’s the only reason why I am still there, I believe it is where I am supposed to be.
On the other hand, no day goes by when I don’t spend a longer period of time on the loo crying and praying for GOD to make it a little easier for me to bear… today, I am at home, I asked for a day off, because my vetting didn’t go through again and that means that I will have to do 2 more weeks without keys (there are key talks every two weeks and one only can attend when the clearance is granted) and I told my manager that I don’t know how to do it for two more weeks and that I can’t do this any longer…
I don’t even have my own cases, I have to do everything together with my “buddy”, who is by the way one of the few nice girls in the office and she is lovely and doing everything to make it easier for me, but it is getting a real burden for me and also for her having to be so close all the time…
This was just so that you will get a picture of my daily setting.
When we are out “on the wings” speaking with the prisoners, everything is ok, at least when I can speak to them (and silently praying for them, because there is not much I can really do for them but pray), everything is ok… but a large amount of my days, I am trapped with these girls and their conversations in this room, having to listen, not being able to go anywhere for fresh air or just go outside to avoid being in that space where they pollute everyone with their evil thoughts, words and intentions and gossip… last week, the light of the toilet in that building where I can go without having to ask someone to take me to the toilet) was broken and I couldn’t even go to the loo alone, which was when I almost went home and threw in the towel.
This has been going on for 6 weeks now and as I said, I told my manager that I won’t be able to do this anymore, especially since the bully, the “pack leader” has started to pick on me, she is one that is really aggressive and if she was a prisoner, a client, I would not speak to her alone, and yet, since she is a co worker, I have to listen to her all the time and have to put up with her trying to provoke me, being rude to me and to my manager in a manner and way that I can’t even believe she is still working there…
This is my situation.
And I do my best to stay out of everything.
Which of course makes them want to attack me sometimes and they do.
Another thing is that when no manager is around, they all want to leave early.
And of course, the manager doesn’t want us to.
Since I have no keys, I can’t leave alone, but I also can’t be that last one to stay… last week, I called my manager back on my mobile outside (we can’t have our phones inside the prison) and told him that I left early and that I couldn’t tell him who I left with and who was still there or not, that I wasn’t able to be his spy, especially without keys. He was furious, but I think he understood.
This situation is re-occuring every day though, because they normally designate someone to stay and answer the phone and lie for everyone else – I told them that I can’t lie, which made them very furious…
I mean this one is really annoying but after all, I can only choose the fear of GOD over the fear of men, there is no other choice for me, but still, it is making things very hard for me and sometimes, I am even in danger – once, they left me alone in the building, which was of course locked, and me, I don’t have keys… if there had been a fire, I would have been trapped in the building – they know this, but they don’t care – as long as I don’t comply with their rules and howl with the pack, I am sort of outlawed…
What happens during these conversations which I am unable to avoid is that I can spiritually see and feel them getting more and more demonized and weakened themselves by the demons they feed all the time with their talk.
I can literally see it happening, and I have these visions of spirits being present, so many, evil spirits of all kinds and they are increasing in numbers.
New staff is either being involved or drained very, very soon after they arrive.
And the point I am trying to make is that I believe that the root cause of all this getting worse and worse is the language they are using – I am even noticing that they don’t watch their language anymore at all whereas they didn’t seem to use the “f…” word, at least not a lot, when I came 6 weeks ago, it is now there in every sentence they speak, at least once – and there is hardly anyone who is not speaking their worst “street language” – sometimes it is so low that I don’t even know what it means, but from the context I know that it must be something filthy and I am glad that I don’t know this word which had just been used.
It is almost as if these filthy and negative words come out of their mouths as darkness, sort of a dark smoke and the more they speak, the more the smoke consumes the air of the room, this dark cloud is where the demons and evil spirits dwell and they, too, consume the room, enter everyone who is in there, you can’t do anything but breathe “it” in and it also crawls into you, not just through breathing, but also through your skin and through what you hear…
This is how it feels being in that office and sometimes I can hardly make it to the toilet before I start crying and I literally can’t breathe in there…
I was praying for GOD to let my clearance go through, but he didn’t and now, I am physically so stressed that I don’t even know if I will ever go back there and GOD will have to do something if this is truly my calling, because it is at the moment too hard for me to cope with the circumstances.
But this is exactly where the point I am trying to make comes out more clearly.
What can I do about this? Or about any situation in my life?
Inside the office (even if only in my head) or outside?
I can only fight (their) filth with purity, darkness with light, hate with love, now, can’t I?
There is nothing else I can do, now, is there?
And this is exactly what I mean!
And the only way I can do this is with words. It is how JESUS fought the devil when he was tempted in the wilderness, it is how we do spiritual warfare, it is how we pray, it is how we learn and hear from GOD.
It may not be as drastic all the time and everywhere as in my workplace, it is quite a “prototype” working there, the typical demonised, young, hip hop, weed smoking girl who either was or almost was a criminal herself before she came to work in the prison (one of them admitted she had a criminal record yesterday, I am not making this up!).
But at the same time, this is how it starts and ends.
And GOD even said it:
21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.
We are planting our fruits with what we are saying, with what we are listening to, with what we are exposing ourselves to.
It is no secret that I have been severely demonised because of my ignorance and openness to the New Age Movement and many elements and teachings of it… I have been demonised by WORDS!
And most people are.
Thoughts are made of words.
So how can we NOT be very cautious of ungodly words being around us, entering us?
I notice and I am sure that many of the “buzzwords” or a large part of the lingo that the New Age, which is a synonym for satanism and the occult (!!!) uses, are nowadays highly accepted and frequently used terms in the world, in the “Worldish” language, how I call it – opposed to what I found and took from the blog linked to above calling the jargon of us believers “Christianese”.
So if we don’t like to speak and hear “Christianese”, does that not mean that we automatically will have to speak “Worldish” or at least tolerate it?
Is there an in between?
Is it possible to live in the world and serve CHRIST?
According to HIM it’s not.
1 John 2:15
Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.
What I understand and totally appreciate is that someone can dissapprove of the attitude which often comes with “Christianese” being spoken.
I, too, have seen it and even written about it, I call it the “holier than thou” – attitude and it is talking down on people, looking down on them, raising the index finger and displaying the expression and the tone of voice of a stern, mansplaining, annoying teacher.
That’s not what Christianity is about at all and that is completely off track and I, too, get annoyed by that!
Yet, it is normally not what they are saying, but how they are saying it what annoys me when I get annoyed by someone speaking “Christianese”.
In general, I love the language!
I can even say I can’t get enough of it!
I feel safe and I immediately relax when a true man or woman of GOD speaks in this manner – either from the pulpit or in a normal conversation. As if “Christianese” was in itself transporting the peace of CHRIST – to me, that’s exactly what it does.
To me, this language was a true life saver.
Not only because of what it brought me, also because of what it taught me and how I became transformed by it.
It helped me to separate from what got me me into so much spiritual trouble!
It taught me what to look out for!
It taught me how to speak GOD’s truth – and speaking GOD’s truth changed me while I was speaking it – mainly and first and foremost to myself in order to heal, in order to be delivered, in order to come back to LIFE…
So for me, I don’t see the point in being annoyed by the words or the language, it is as if you were being offended by the bible itself.
Well, if you are (and I admit that I was sometimes and it may happen again when THE HOLY SPIRIT is correcting me and teaching me something I need to change about me in my life), then you need to argue and reason with GOD and not with the person who “delivered the message” in HIS language, “Christianese”.
Me, I love it and of course, I don’t expect the world to speak it and it is ok for me when the world gets annoyed by me trying to speak it, even though I believe when the language annoyed someone, I didn’t deliver it right, most of the time it will be that I wasn’t humble enough and didn’t leave them enough room to either take it or leave it…
So that’s the world – it is ok for me when they consider me a weirdo, I take this as a price I am gladly paying for belonging to GOD – even though I never want to offend anyone, I want to attract them to Christianity, not alienate them – sometimes I get it wrong though – but many times, the prisoners say that they feel respected and that they know that I care and more often than not, I even get a chance to chat with them about GOD, which is what I love most… like I said before, prisoners are an easy clientele to work with in a way, they already know that they messed up and need to change – my colleagues in the office, that is a completely different story…
But when fellow believers get annoyed by “Christianese” and not by the deliverance of it, then I am assuming that they have been compromised by the enemy and it happens a lot. And then I would actually become watchful of them, would not consider them “safe”… because for me, I don’t trust men, I don’t even trust myself and someone who is not committed to GOD is committed to the other one and then, I cannot be around them, have to look for someone else…
But that’s just me…
Just to tell you one more tale from the office to demonstrate the worldliness and how they use language as an entrance to sin:
the other day, they were “playing” a game called “truth and lie” – everyone had to say 2 things, one that was true and the other was a lie and the others had to guess which was which…me, I was trying my best to seem busy at the computer, but then, when they insisted that it must be my turn now (guess who it was?), I said that I can’t play with lies… the “leader” then suggested we play a game we all can play – luckily, they got distracted and that didn’t happen … but this is significant for my time with them – they would do something, say something, try to involve me and every time, I would have to say “no” as nicely and politely as I can, because it is never something I can be a part of – and that in itself annoys them, it doesn’t even matter what I say, they want me to bow to “their god”, whereas I am not putting any pressure on them to bow to mine. But I guess that’s not only significant to my situation in the office (it is probably a very drastic situation), but to every Christians’ situation in the world – there will be opposition, temptation and even pressure and we will have to take decisions on where we belong.
Basically, what I am trying to say is that I do my best to live a holy life.
And that goal is very important to me.
I don’t consider myself a legalist – perhaps some people would, in fact, I think legalism is a sin in itself and I don’t think that ‘s what speaking “Christianese” in opposed to “Worldish” is about.
It is just that I don’t like to do these worldly things anymore, I don’t want to do them – I don’t mind if anyone else does any of it and that’s completely their business, I am only speaking and deciding for me… and it is absolutely not my attitude or mentality or habit to judge people, at least not people who are not close to me, I am working with prisoners and I never talk down on them! In fact, many of them say that I am the only person who is respecting them and who they can talk to…
I don’t want to offend anyone, but what happens a lot is that people judge themselves because of me and then project it on me and that they often take offense when I (have to) refuse to be part of their schemes.
I can’t help that.
There is only one choice for me.
And I like to speak as pure as I can, just as I like to live my life as purely as I can to my best ability.
This is about me, not about them.
And I believe my language is not going to harm anyone, whereas theirs is, it harms me sometimes when I can’t escape and it is harmful to everyone listening to it.
I believe that language is not just language.
I believe that we create our outcomes, our states and our lives with how and what we speak and listen to. I don’t just only believe this because the bible says so, but also because I find it to be true in my world and in my life. Besides, so does the enemy – mantras, affirmations, dirty music with filthy lyrics – he, too, uses words a lot and I believe if we want to fight him, so must we.
Last, but not least, having been a therapist for many years, working with language only and seeing how effective this is, I even think we can’t underestimate the power of language and me, I will do all I can to speak and listen to as much “Christianese” as possible and to be exposed to and utter as little “Worldish” as I can.
To me personally, avoiding “Christianese” is almost like avoiding GOD and HIS fruits and HIS benefits for us and HIS presence…
But that’s just me…
How about you, my friend, what do you think?
And do you speak “Christianese”?
I hope and pray that this will inspire, heal and bless you. And that THE LORD will bless you abundantly in all areas of your life, that HE will keep you and shine HIS face upon you and bring you peace. In JESUS’ name I pray. AMEN.