this is now my 3rd attempt to write about what has been happening in my workplace… not sure how to describe it and I don’t even know what name to give this post…
It’s just so incredible in so many ways.
If I said there has been a plot against me, this would be an expression nowhere close to the intensity that has been going on.
“War” describes it better.
But then also, GOD is doing incredible things to protect me.
HE gives me hints, shows me how to navigate, what to say, HE protects me…
As I said, I have lost a job before because of witchcraft… and it is ugly, disgusting, painful and even gut-wrenching to be in the middle of a plot like this… I can’t even fully describe what they do to the atmosphere – it makes me want to puke!
However, this time, it seems as if GOD is giving me evidence that I am being bullied and discriminated.
Not that this hasn’t been the case the previous times.
And I am truly wondering why this keeps happening to me?
What it has to do with is control, submission, power.
I don’t need them…. I am not even interested in pleasing them… but don’t get me wrong, I am friendly, polite – it’s just that I don’t make any efforts to grovel or become their friend, which infuriates them, because I do talk to a few people in the prison, just not within the team… they want me to lie and pretend that I like them, want me to ask for their favor, want me to submit to their games… as I said, I am friendly and polite, but I don’t do what they want and that eats their dark hearts out!
I am not going to lie, if I had any savings or someone who could support me until I find another job, I would never, ever go back there ever again!
I wouldn’t even tell them!
Would not even ring them to let them know.
Would simply block them on my phone, not answer any emails and let them burn in their own hell.
These people are EVIL.
And it looks like they will not be able to fire me this time, because they made too many mistakes.
But me, I want to leave.
Rather sooner than later.
I have sent out tons of applications!
I’ve even applied to become a prison officer in the same prison!
A prison officer is not what I ever wanted to be, however, I felt GOD prompting me to give it a try, and to be honest, the leaders in the prison system I have seen so far are all much better than the leaders I see in my team!
I’ve also applied for a chaplaincy position in another prison.
I firmly believe that being a prison chaplain is my calling!
But I always thought that it would come to pass in “my prison”, the one I am at now…
Friends, I am not well.
I am even feeling physically unwell, literally sick to my stomach, and I absolutely don’t want to go to work tomorrow!
But GOD will give me strength, I know.
This is a storm indeed.
I am in the very middle of a hurricane.
Strangely enough, fear is not something I feel.
I am not afraid.
Because I know GOD is there with me and I also know it’s not my fault.
Even though it keeps happening, I know it is not me, it is them!
Them against the SPIRIT in me – these wicked people cannot stand when someone is filled with the HOLY SPIRIT!
They are accusing, manipulating, deliberately attacking, defaming, slandering, doing whatever they can to annoy and hurt me – and I don’t even know how I came through these past 2 weeks without shouting at anyone or physically attacking them or leaving the room during one of the most horrific and disgusting conversations I have ever had to have in my life!
It IS similar to what happened before.
And the devil keeps trying to tell me that it is my fault, that there is something wrong with me, that I will never be able to hold a job, that I will never be able to keep friends or even a husband…
What also stands out is that both my parents have experienced prolonged periods of severe bullying in the workplace and so has my sister – a familiar spirit is bugging us – the unbelievers, fair enough, but me? Who has been engaging in spiritual warfare for years now…?
I am even angry at GOD.
When I went home on Friday, I walked through the park as I do every day, on my way to the train station, and I was shouting – at them and at HIM, shouting out about the unfairness and the ridiculousness of their argument, shouting back at them and shouting at GOD for letting them do this to me, shouting at HIM for never, ever sparing me, for letting me go through EVERY fire that wants to find me!!!!
Shouting at HIM for not loving me like HE loves others, for always allowing the storms to whirl through me, around me…
Shouting in the park like a madwoman.
Must have been a funny sight for some people.
Except for me, it was not funny at all.
And it still isn’t.
As I am writing this and as I recall ALLLLL the millions and gazillions of efforts the devil and his minions have undertaken to destroy me and discourage me and even to kill me, it almost does amuse me a bit though… when I hear about other people’s struggles, it sometimes feels as if they live in kindergarden and as if they complain for 2 years about what I have to conquer in 2 days… and then there’s always GOD… the bible plan I am following, to read the bible in 1 year from cover to cover, it seems as if every day, I am in the EXACT right chapter to help me with what I am currently facing……
And the only good thing about it is that I know that HE also had to endure the same thing, being persecuted, accused and even killed for not having done anything.
What I have been accused of and told this last week, it literally felt like they were killing me!
But I am still standing.
Perhaps even taller than before.
Friends, I guess what I am saying is this:
NO matter what ever happens, GOD is there with us. GOD is greater than all our enemies. And NOTHING can happen to us if HE doesn’t allow it.
In other words:
If GOD be for us, who can be against us?
“What shall we then say to these things?
If God be for us, who can be against us?”
And HE always sends encouragement and comfort!
In fact, my greatest triumphs came out of these witchcraft attacks in the workplace!
Who knows, perhaps this time GOD will somehow take me to the fulfillment of my calling, will allow me to step into my true ministry, or at least one step closer to it…?!??!!!
My key and LIFE scripture is in Revelation 3, where GOD promises to show the fake Christians that HE has loved me!
I have held on to that scripture every time it happened – this is now the 3rd time and the first time, it came out of nowhere and I got fired right away. The second time, I had to go through many months of hell until I found a new job and left there with a “bang”.
It is my prayer that this time, the storm will calm down immediately and I will still find something better quickly!
Here’s what GOD said and what my word is in these situations:
Revelation 3: 8 -11
I know thy works: behold, I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it: for thou hast a little strength, and hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name.
9 Behold, I will make them of the synagogue of Satan, which say they are Jews, and are not, but do lie; behold, I will make them to come and worship before thy feet, and to know that I have loved thee.
10 Because thou hast kept the word of my patience, I also will keep thee from the hour of temptation, which shall come upon all the world, to try them that dwell upon the earth.
11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown.
And I also received confirmation from a Man of GOD.
I follow his ministry online and sometimes send him a little donation from time to time and randomly, he sends emails with prayers back.
And the one that came today is describing my situation perfectly (!!!) and it says:
I therefore decree That:
Your garment of glory shall not be tampered with. In the name of JESUS CHRIST I decree your symbol of honor shall not be removed.
Once again, I decree, your nakedness shall not be exposed for the world to see. Joseph’s coat of many colors differentiated him from his brethren. I decree, every garment of glory which differentiates you from others shall not be taken away from you. I decree every testimony that separates you from others shall not be polluted. Every seen and unseen enemy, targeting your garment of glory, shall be put to shame. What gives you joy, shall not be taken away from you. Your garment of joy shall not be removed.I prophesy, this very day shall yield its increase to you IN JESUS MIGHTY NAME.
I believe it.
GOD shall see me through and just now, as I am writing this, another verse of victory and triumph and encouragement comes to mind:
The glory of this latter house shall be greater than of the former, saith the LORD of hosts: and in this place will I give peace, saith the LORD of hosts.”
Dear friends, has GOD helped you through storms before?
How did HE do it?
What did HE say to you?
Wherewith did he encourage you?
Please share your stories or testimonies, I will greatly appreciate it and me plus everyone reading it will benefit from your victory, we will all “tap into it” as we say in my church.
I hope and pray that this will encourage, heal, inspire and bless you.
And that THE LORD will bless you abundantly in all areas of your life; that HE will keep you and shine HIS face upon you, and bring you PEACE. In JESUS’ name I pray! AMEN.