The GOOD from the bad

Dear friends

You can probably read it all over the press or on the internet when you google it, perhaps you’ve even come across this already, I read about it on a brother’s blog and you can get to his post here – it’s the story how by GOD’s grace, some of his family survived a plain crash in Alaska…

It inspired me.

And I was thinking, isn’t this the case for all of us?

That GOD saved us out of a catastrophe and brought something good out of the calamities we were once caught up in?

When I look at my own case, this is definitely true for me!

Not saying that my life is perfect now, but compared to a few years ago when I was extremely suicidal and not even able to hold a job, completely isolated, traveling around the world, pretty much meandering around, not taking drugs or drinking, but so so severely depressed because of the constant bombardment with these terrible black magic attacks, day and night, unable to sleep, unable to function, I truly wanted to die (alternating with wanting to kill my aggressor)… this was a state I cannot even properly put into words….

And then, when JESUS saved me, I slowly became a human being again, a person with an identity, with some self-esteem, some sense of self-worth, all through the knowing inside my heart and soul that somebody loves me and loves me even so much that HE died for me.

For ME.

I was feeling lower than low, did not believe I would ever be able to get out of this hell on earth, but then HE came.

When HE came, everything changed.

Not over night.

Slowly.

Little by little, as the bible says in

Exodus 23:30

“By little and little I will drive them out from before thee, until thou be increased, and inherit the land.”

Little by little did I get better and stronger.

I’ve come a long way.

I still have a journey before me.

Until I am completely healed.

Until I can freely speak about the abuse – here and offline.

Until I can trust again…

But the good thing is, it is already in me.

By “it”, do I mean the new life, the life as a whole person, with friends, with loved ones and hopefully even with “the one” by my side.
The fact that I am even dreaming about a husband, the fact that I am even confident and hopeful enough to have set my eyes on someone (you may have read about it previously here on my blog) is a miracle in itself!
That I would even be capable of wanting to let someone close like this again, close enough to be able hurt me, that was beyond my imagination even a while ago.

But HE came… JESUS… and loved me.
With an “everlasting love” indeed.
With a love that is so healing and comforting and greater than all pain.

Can you imagine someone loving you so much that they would die for you?

Or even loving you so much to sacrifice their child for you?

Me, I can’t really – only because I know HIM can I imagine a love like this.

A love that can heal, restore and even literally give a new life and a new identity – it is not a lie when GOD’s word says that

2 Corinthians 5:17
¹⁷ Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

I can completely confirm this.

Everything changed.

My entire outlook on the world, on people, on what matters and what doesn’t.

The “old me” wouldn’t have moved to the country where I live now.
The old me wouldn’t have chosen the job I do today – let alone would I have loved it so much!
I don’t think I would have been able to encounter my clients, prisoners, on eye-level.
I would probably have judged them!
And many people in the criminal justice system, even many people working within the prison, do still judge them!
Only through what I have been through do I understand violence and perpetrators in a way that only someone who is in the very middle of the dynamic can… and GOD has helped me to open my heart to them, to those who have done the same or similar to what has been done to me.
And only GOD (or someone who has worked with HIM) can understand how this is healing me in a weird and twisted way – it is healing to my soul to show respect, compassion and support to those who have violated others as I have been violated.
This will not make sense to a lot of people.
To me it does though.
I am close to them in a way nobody else can be.
I understand where they are coming from and which “turmoil” has made them do what they have done.
Or shall I rather say demonic influence, obsession, possession, addiction, violence and abuse they themselves have encountered and endured – all from the same source – evil, darkness, the enemy, whatever you want to call it or him, the prince of this world…
From a bad source for sure!

And in SO many conversations, on sooooo many occasions, GOD is there when I speak to them. GOD is actually the one who is leading these conversations – and oftentimes, I can see in their eyes that what we are talking about in this very moment is touching their heart and their soul and is giving them hope, healing, restoration.
Even that someone would speak to them like this, after what they have done – this alone is healing for many of them.
And I am just in awe of GOD when I see the glow in their eyes.
When I get to see a smile in a “rugged” face… many of their faces are rugged…

AND every time when I get to witness a little healing, some deliverance, a tiny progress, some emotional baggage leaving them, some insights or revelations getting through to them – every time any of this happens, my own soul and heart is gaining a little lost piece back, is able to close a wound, is regenerated a bit.
I believe it is because it is so good for both of us.
For them, because I really care and they can feel it.
And for me, because I am not the victim, I am helping THEM, I am able to support them, which brings back my own power.
ALL by the grace of GOD.
HE has place me there.
In a setting where I need to see what I need to see AND can give what only I can give…
BECAUSE of the evil I have endured.

It all began with HIS sacrifice almost 2000 years ago.

Little did they know that GOD was in control all along.
That they could never have killed HIM had HE not allowed it.
They had no clue what HE was going to do with their evilness…
If they had known what a BLESSING for humanity HE would make out of the evil they did to HIM!!!

But this was just the beginning.
HE is still saving lives until this day by HIS death 2000 years ago – and it will go on and on until the end of humanity, until all the prophecies are fulfilled!
And it’s only one example of how and when HE turned all the bad to our GOOD.

My friend, make sure that you are a partaker of GOD’s goodness!
You need HIM in your life, in your heart!
If perhaps you are reading this and have not given your life to JESUS, don’t wait any longer!
You cannot make it on your own, cannot prevail against the devil on your own, cannot make it to heaven and also, you need to be made whole, you need healing and you need HIS love, we ALL do!

JESUS is the way, the truth and the life. HE died on the cross for your sins, yes, that’s right, for yours and mine… it is all such a fascinating and yet true story. JESUS CHRIST came to earth as the SON OF GOD to save us all from the devil. And HIS works are still relevant today, HE is as alive today as he was more than 2000 years ago. And if you are not saved, HE wants to save you today, right here and right now: please don’t stay under the power of the king of darkness, please join us and give your life to THE LORD.

Here is an example of what you can pray in your heart right now, if you want to make JESUS LORD over your life:

“Dear Heavenly Father, I acknowledge and confess that I have not lived my life for YOU to this day, but have been living for myself and in sin and that is wrong. Please forgive me of all of my sins just as I forgive others. I need YOU in my life; I want YOU in my life.
I recognize the completed work of YOUR only begotten Son JESUS CHRIST in giving HIS life for me on the cross, I believe in my heart JESUS is LORD and that HE was raised from the dead and ask for YOUR forgiveness, which YOU have made freely available to me through this sacrifice.
Come into my life now, LORD!
Take up residence in my heart and be my KING, my LORD, and my SAVIOUR!
From this day forward, I will no longer be controlled by sin, or the desire to please myself, but I will follow YOU all the days of my life. Those days are in YOUR hands.
I ask this Jesus name.
Amen.”

If you have just prayed this prayer, you are now part of GOD’s kingdom and family and I heartily welcome you, my dear brother or sister!

The next thing to do is get a bible and find a church where you can receive further instructions, so that your new life in THE LORD may prosper and that you will become who HE made you to be.

GOD bless you and if you have any questions or need any assistance, please get in touch.

And to all of you, I hope and pray that this will inspire, heal, encourage and bless you.
And that THE LORD will bless you abundantly in all areas of your life, that HE will keep you and shine HIS face upon you and bring you peace. In JESUS’ name I pray. AMEN.