Blessings in disguise

Dear friends,

I am sure you, too, have been through difficult times in your life.
I am sure everybody has to go through them.

And I am not talking about losing a button on your shirt or breaking a fingernail or having a flat tire…

I mean hardships.
Real rough patches.
True disasters!

What is our most common first response to those?

We tend to perceive them as a severe blow, as a bad thing which happened to us and we tend to ask “WHY ME?” or “WHY NOW?” and we tend to lament, cry, mourn… don’t we?

Let me tell you the latest thing which happened to me and I am sure you will be able to relate to me / to this in some sort of way:

Yesterday, after the Sunday Service at my church, I asked for prayer, because I had been perceiving that something had terribly gone wrong in my new job and I knew I was about to be fired.
Actually from day 1, I had felt threatened, watched, rejected, disapproved of, put in a negative corner, misunderstood (deliberately), met with hostility and accused of things which I had not or not exactly said.
And I simply knew that this wasn’t going to go well and that they were going to fire me.
And they have – this morning.
I don’t need to go into too much detail, I might at some other time, but what I do need to say is that I feel treated extremely unfair and from my point of view, what I was accused of is simply not true and I have not been given a chance to improve, even though I tried to address the issue, I have not even been exactly told what the problem was.
I feel I’ve been set up for failure by everyone including my manager and this is all I need to say to elaborate on my spiritual point.

Well, you weren’t there and of course, you will only hear my side of the story and there are always 2 or more sides, but in order to consider my learnings, it will not even be necessary for you to believe me, only to imagine and consider my situation – an example of extreme injustice in my life – or remember one in your life perhaps? Ok?
A situation where I / or you have been severely wronged.
I am sure you have been there, dear friends.
And this is the example I want to use today to illustrate what I found out or what I learned – I am not saying this is easy or pleasant, not at all! – but in the end, it will be for my GOOD.

Romans 8:28
“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”

If you have been following my blog (or even if you want to read it now), you will have read that this is / was the job I had been praying for for many years, the field I feel that GOD has called me into. I LOVED this job, at least did I (and do I) love the job itself, the purpose, the goals and reasons for doing it and the outcomes people doing this job can achieve.
Of course, I never loved being in that team and being “dissed” all the time from the very beginning. I have never come into a team where the others will not help someone who is new, where the manager will not even go through the job description with them, where there will be no training or instructions at all and where a newbie will be told that it will be up to their own initiative and then, when they do things, where they are told that they couldn’t do that or mustn’t say this… it is almost like it was all hexed and that’s probably exactly what it was, but I don’t want to go there now.

Because my point is this:
Even though it was all horrific and terrible (except the work with the prisoners!!!) and even though I have no idea how to pay my next rent – YET – here is what I learned and confirmed for myself:

1. GOD is GOD and only HE is GOD, nobody else!

And if HE puts me / us into a job, we WILL be working in this job.
Period.
An employer or a manager is not MY GOD.
Nor is a company.
Nor are colleagues who might feel threatened by our arrival for whatever reason (and I do have assumptions for the reasons, but they are irrelevant for my point here).
Nor is a location where we are doing the job or any of the circumstances we do it in.
GOD is in control.
ALL the time.
And HE rules over our lives and if we and when we align our lives to HIS WILL, to what HE wants us to do for a living and who HE wants us to be, we will be fine.
I repeat: we will be fine.
And I will be fine.
I don’t have a new job  – yet.
Yes, I started looking a little bit a while ago, in my first week working there in fact, and I might be able to reactivate the offer I declined when I accepted this job, but at this very moment, which is the moment when I came home after having this dire conversation, I don’t have a job and I may have to sign on for benefits again and may have to be very poor for a while once again, before I will be in a new job, but one thing is ABSOLUTELY SURE:
I WILL have a new job in this field and it will be soon and it will be a better job.
Why is that?
Because it is GOD’s will.
I was not rebellious, I was not blunt, I did not offend anyone, even though this is what I am being accused of, what I was is I was honest.
And GOD loves honesty.
I would have lied if I had not said what I said.
And I will not lie for a job.
MY FATHER will honor that.
I am even quite sure I will soon be in a position where they will need me more than I need them and where they will wish they hadn’t dissed and sacked me – because THAT’s how GOD works.

Isaiah 54:17
“No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD.”

2. What I said earlier about faith is true

I have NO DOUBT that GOD will take me to a better place, that HE will provide for me, that HE will let me do the work HE called me to do.
Absolutely no doubt whatsoever.
Even though the circumstances and the situation does not look good at all on the outside.

It is not the first time I have been sacked during my probation period, you know.
In fact, it is the second time in a row.
And you don’t need to be a genius or an HR expert to know that this will absolutely not look good at all in my CV and I will have some explaining to do in an interview (if I get invited after this at all).
But that doesn’t matter to GOD.
If HE wants me to get the job, I will get it!
HE will guide me towards the next steps and the good thing, which gives me confirmation that everything is going according to plan is that I am on a fast, just as I was when I was fired the last time.
And I was praying for HIM to get me out of there, because I was getting physically ill and I have also asked for wisdom and guidance about what to do and I addressed things with everyone, which is the absolute right thing to do, but nobody wanted to be honest with me and to me.
So what could I have done?
I tried to speak with them and solve whatever it was… and basically, I was either not told anything at all or only vague statements and I didn’t even understand what it was exactly I was being accused of.

In my understanding, I am not getting fired for doing the WRONG thing or being rebellious or being difficult to work with or not complying to whatever they accuse me of, on the contrary:
I AM GETTING FIRED FOR DOING THE RIGHT THING!
For being honest and for being open about the problems we were having to understand each other.
MY FATHER knows what truly happened and HE will correct what they have done!
MY FATHER is the one who hires me.
MY FATHER is the one I work for.
HE is the one who provides for me!
I have been praying about every step, about every meeting, about every response to my colleagues, about every move I make in this job, I have been commanding every day to THE LORD, have even been praying for my colleagues, even for my manager every day, in fact, when I came out of the building today after having been fired, there was anger coming up and a voice told me to curse them, and I rebuked the devil and prayed for GOD to forgive them instead, because they are wrong and they have wronged me, but MY FATHER KNOWS THE TRUTH!
And HE will deal with them, will teach them or chastise them or whatever HE wants to do with them – me, I am just like them, not any better, even though I was right and innocent this time, I am still a sinner  – just like them!

HE will put this right, HE will reward me, HE will help me into a new position.
And when HE will say “yes”, no man can say “no”.

THIS is what faith is about.
Things are not looking good on the outside, but I have peace, the peace of CHRIST. The peace which surpasses all understanding and I know that I will come out well.

And I will not hate them who did this to me, I REFUSE TO HATE them and anyone else, because that’s exactly what the devil wants me and wants us to do!
Hate, even curse or think of revenge.
Hatred will only defile MY HEART and it will change nothing.
No!
That’s not MY JOB.
Neither hating nor judging.
I am not a judge and especially not entitled to judge other brothers and sisters.
That’s not my business.
I commanded them, the situation and my pain to GOD, I nailed it to the cross, I even REJOICE that I am allowed to partake in MY LORD’s sufferings, because HE, too, was even murdered innocently and today (or in the past weeks), I was slaughtered, too, even though it was only professionally… it hurt personally, because I wanted to be their friend, I wanted it to work out… it really hurt… all along…

1 Peter 4:12-13
Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.

 

Psalm 18: 47 – 49
It is God that avengeth me, and subdueth the people under me.
He delivereth me from mine enemies: yea, thou liftest me up above those that rise up against me: thou hast delivered me from the violent man.
Therefore will I give thanks unto thee, O LORD, among the heathen, and sing praises unto thy name.

 

3. Not only regarding revenge, but also regarding the outcome for everybody will GOD see that the result will be fair, just and appropriate

And this is not only my faith speaking:
I have seen this.
Many times.
In good and in bad ways.
I have seen wicked people fall.
And I have seen righteous, GOD loving and fearing people get their reward.
As for me personally, I absolutely fail to understand how people who call themselves Christians can fail to fear GOD and be involved in backstabbing and in intrigues… but I am not even thinking about it anymore, I commanded it to GOD and HE will take care of it.

Galatians 6:7
Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.

Another truth is:

4. Forgiveness is crucial.

I have learned this from my history.
I have really, really learned it and it is written in my heart.
If you have read my testimony, you will know that I am praying every day for the warlock who has been trying to kill me for almost 7 years now.

And I will pray for my colleagues and for my former manager, too, because what they have done doesn’t tell the truth about me and who I am,  it tells it all about them and about their pains and wounds and they need JESUS, they may believe they have HIM already, but what they have done clearly proves that they don’t and that’s why I will pray for them.

Matthew 5:44
But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;

I love them in a way, just as I love everybody, because we are all made in the image of GOD and OUR FATHER loves us all and everybody is where they are on their spiritual journey and also in their faith and in their walk with CHRIST, if they are truly walking with them.

I know I will come out well and I am not worried, I am confident and I know the glory of the latter house will be greater than the glory of the former and I will have PEACE.
I am hurting, yes, but I know that MY LORD and SAVIOR will heal me and that I will be in a better place than this soon.
Greater.

Haggai 2:9
The glory of this latter house shall be greater than of the former, saith the LORD of hosts: and in this place will I give peace, saith the LORD of hosts.

5. The best thing about a cheerful response to what SEEMS like a severe blow, but in the spirit is most likely an upgrade is: it confuses and frustrates the enemy!

He thinks he can discourage us with his lies, with his accusations, with his plots he has been creating against us, using people to disgrace, disrespect, reject and hurt  us.

But when we stay positive and faithful and focus on OUR LORD JESUS and on the cross and on the VICTORY HE has already won for us, there is absolutely nothing the enemy can do against us.
And what could he do to us?
What can people do to us?

When I look at the bigger picture, this doesn’t really matter.
In fact, it is even a good proof and confirmation for me that this IS in fact the work I want to do and will do and will be very good at! And I have already won my first victory over the devil, who wants nothing more than to keep us from fulfilling our purpose.
The fact that I have been bullied and abused from day one and fired within my first month of being in the job spiritually means that I am 100% in the right place and have already done great damage to the kingdom of darkness – and I am so happy about it and I give GOD all the glory!
I did have many very good opportunities to speak about JESUS with the men and even with some non-believing colleagues and that’s what I am really there for.
PRAISE HIM!

Personally, this can only make me grow stronger and it means nothing for my life or for my career, whereas the persons who have wronged me will still have the violence in them and will have to deal with it, either in their professional lives, e.g. through the person who comes after me or through their next manager, or in their social lives…
I know how violence operates and I can recognise the spirit of violence when I see it – and when it’s not dealt with, it does great damage!
It is a very persistent and thorough spirit, it literally eats up relationships, love, good contacts before they even become love, but it destroys – either with a bang or slowly… and what they have done, to throw someone out on the streets by plotting against that person, it shows that the spirit of violence already has a large place in them – sadly.

In a few weeks, this company and the backstabbing teammates and manager will be forgotten for me and will only be a memory for my life, and I will be fulfilling my mission, whereas they will still be dealing with their very same problems, with their infection by the spirit or the virus of violence – unless they open their eyes and own their part of the outcome, which I can only hope for them!

If I would believe the enemy, I would be afraid that I will not find a new job, but who is the devil?
All I know is that the devil is a liar.

This is only a short episode in my life, it only shows what I already know and GOD will use it FOR me and bless me through this!

MY GOD is GOD and I am not afraid of anyone or anything.

Psalm 27:1
The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

I praise THE LORD and I am actually grateful that this happened and that it happened so quickly.

Because as you can imagine, I didn’t feel comfortable in this workplace with all the hostility coming my way and as much as I loved the job itself, I also didn’t like to be wasting all this time and energy to the quarrels with them and to thinking about my reactions to all the conflicts they were brewing, I knew that it wasn’t the right team to do this job in and I thank MY FATHER for speeding things up, for helping me take the courage to have another go at it, I have been asking HIM about it, have been asking HIM to show me the way to go forward and HE has!

Without his help, I would have probably stuck it out very much longer – and I would have suffered through every day of it.
I have been praying for guidance and for a new opportunity with a different company in the same field and here it comes, this is the first step and instead of staying in this toxic team longer and losing more sleep, health, nerves and time there, I can now focus on finding a better place to work and to devote my talents and skills for my GOD given purpose and calling and I am confident that HE will give me this opportunity very soon, because the world is HIS, ALL the companies are HIS, ALL the people who work there are HIS and if it is HIS will, I will be in a new, better job in NO TIME.

And that’s what I ask of MY FATHER and I believe HIM for it.
In JESUS’ name I pray. AMEN.

Please support my request with your prayer if you can, it will be very much appreciated and I will return the favor if you want me to and of course, I will keep you posted 🙂

6. Another realization which is of great importance

When you have been ensnared and fooled by the dark side and when you have gotten into serious trouble for believing the lies of the devil – like me – , and when you’ve come out of it, when GOD has delivered you from the consequences and when you have repented and asked for HIS forgiveness and when you have sought HIS face diligently and when you have asked THE HOLY SPIRIT for the gift of discernment and to show and teach you THE TRUTH, this prayer will not stay unanswered.

Just as you will be skilled to test the spirits according to

you will be able to understand in the spirit realm on which spirit a person operates.
And it is not always the spirit which they are claiming to serve, to say the least.
Even if you want to believe in them, in the best in them, the HOLY SPIRIT will become a stronger ally day by day and HE will flag up things they say and do and will warn you about them – and it is very important to follow HIS lead when HE says that a person is not serving the kingdom of GOD.
You will even be shown what their main problem is – even if you don’t ask.
In fact, their demons will manifest in your presence.
Overall, this is a good thing, if we were equipped to deal with it and I myself know that GOD is training me up, but I am not “there” yet to say to my manager “in the name of JESUS, come out of her!”, I don’t have that kind of courage yet… not sure this would have saved me from being fired, I assume it would have got me fired even sooner.

So what I yet need to learn  – and this is what has cost me this job (and has brought me into discredit with many other people, but only with people who’s favor I don’t want, need and appreciate, because they are serving the enemy!)  – is that when I have a revelation that this person is a witch or demonized, I should not in every case be open and address the issues, and I pray that GOD will give me more wisdom to deal with this.

Sometimes I will need to be more wise or go about things a bit more slowly or perhaps I need to realize more that the battle is in the spirit realm, not in this world and doesn’t need to be addressed here, but in prayer only, but then again, the sooner I remove myself  – or they remove me, it doesn’t even matter – out of a toxic situation, a.k.a. team, the better.

Discernment is what OUR GOD wants us all to pray for, HE wants people who know the truth and HE wants people who can actually discern when the enemy is at work and people who will tell all the others.
And this is the most precious learning of it all.
I KNEW it.
It’s always the same way these things work.
When witchcraft is involved, there is a lot of intimidation, manipulation and lies.
This is not the first time I came across witches – not even the first time when I came across witches claiming to be Christians – and if you haven’t had this experience, let me tell you that nothing ever is more hurtful!
It doesn’t feel like a stab in the back, but in the gut.
You trust this person, because you believe that they have the same FATHER, that they are your sister or brother – and then, BOOM!
But when you address it to their face, you freak them out!
Then immediately, you are the crazy / weird / odd one and will be shunned, ridiculed, excluded, especially when disapprove of their methods and refuse to participate or even challenge it openly.
And when they are your manager, they fire you.
Even if they have no reason to.

That’s what I have done and that’s what got me fired – I thank GOD for it.

To not tolerate this witchcraft this time is worth being fired for!
I am in fact grateful for THE HOLY SPIRIT to give me the courage to let them know that I knew.

And I have been sensing it all along, in fact, the first time when I asked my manager if she personally dislikes me or why she was so hostile towards me was on my 4th working day!!!

I am grateful, even this morning on my way there, THE LORD was telling me that I would get fired today, even though nobody had even told me about the meeting and who would be there, and I was totally cool when I saw the head of HR in the room and I greeted her very friendly.

That is something only GOD can do.
I didn’t even defend myself to a great deal.
All I said is that I saw this coming and that it hadn’t been fair, none of it.
I am not even believing it will change anything, this will stay a toxic organisation, a toxic team, but I was true to myself and most of all – to GOD.
I was calm, honest and nailed it.
And I am not taking any credit for it, it was THE HOLY SPIRIT speaking.
In fact, the more I think about it, the more I am amazed about what I said and glad that THE HOLY SPIRIT spoke through me… thank you, JESUS!
PRAISE THE LORD!

I AM AT PEACE.
I know I have done the right thing.
I may be punished or rejected or excluded in this world or by the world, but not by MY FATHER. HE knows the truth. HE knows who is lying and who is telling the truth.
I know that MY FATHER has me.
That HE has got this.
That HE will make this right and make a way.
Even though it looks scary from the outside, I am not afraid.

I know that I have truly been upgraded, have been blessed, that HE has decided to remove me from this toxic team!

And I hope you can relate to this and can feel the same way and can praise HIM and frustrate the devil the next time “something” happens to you – hopefully you can join me in believing that everything in our lives, when we have given our life to HIM and live for HIM, everything that could possible happen, can only be either a (n obvious) blessing or a blessing in disguise!

Can I hear an AMEN???!!!???

I hope and pray that this post inspired and blessed you and that OUR FATHER will bless you richly in all areas of your life and that HE will keep you and shine HIS face upon you. And give you peace. In JESUS’ name I pray. AMEN.