To forgive GOD?

Dear friends

At first, when this question came up, I thought it might be too bold to ask – I even thought about it being blasphemous for a minute…

But then, I thought, let’s talk about it.

After all, HE is OUR FATHER, isn’t HE?

And I don’t know about you, but I’ve never met anyone who doesn’t have a father (an earthly one) who has wronged them at some point and whom they had to forgive.

Have you?

Well, today, I was thinking how GOD has forgiven me ALL I have ever done wrong and all I have ever done that hurt HIM.

And even if it shouldn’t be right or not grateful enough or blunt or offensive of me – I, too, got hurt by some of GOD’s decisions and a few of HIS actions in my life.

I know, this might be my fault.

Or a result of my lack of spiritual maturity…?

But there are some things HE has done that I don’t agree with.

They are too private to discuss them here.

But they exist.

And just as I had decided a few years ago to forgive my earthly father, who has wronged me soooo much and sooo often – and who has recently passed and I am glad I’ve forgiven him before he left…..

Just as I have decided to forgive the man, I have now decided to forgive GOD.

Forgiveness helps us to draw a line under “things” and move on.

And that’s what I want to do now.

Obviously, I don’t want to keep bringing this up all the time, I don’t want to let it stand between us any longer, I want to let it go and perhaps keep the learnings, but not the disappointment.

I want to be “clean” with MY FATHER and focus again on what HE has done FOR me and to bring me joy and on all the gifts HE has given me – that’s why I need to forgive HIM and move on.

And although it may seem like I am lifting myself up too high and bringing HIM too close to being equal to me, which HE is not, as I am only human and HE is GOD, it still is part of any and every relationship to forgive things that the other has done that one found hurtful or wrong, isn’t it?
So even though it has an element of me not doing the right thing and not reverencing HIM enough, it also has an element of doing something that has been missing for a long time, as I have been carrying some criticism, negativity and lack of understanding in me that I no longer want to carry.

Even if I still don’t and may never understand HIM in these matters, I do want to come clean with HIM today!

There was never a question if I would still love HIM – the answer is “yes, always”.
Because HE is the best thing that ever happened to me.
And GOD making mistakes is even in the bible – when it “repented HIM” that HE had destroyed all mankind except Noah and everyone and every living thing on the arch – HE made the vow not to do it again.
Hopefully, HE won’t do again what HE has done, but who am I to tell GOD what to do – perhaps HIM doing what HE has done is necessary for me to learn certain things after all?
But no matter if HE’ll do it again or something similar or not, HE will still always be my #1, my Alpha and Omega, my KING of KINGS… my only GOD.

And I forgive HIM.

As HE has forgiven me.

Obviously, I don’t have as much to give to HIM as HE has given me.

And I don’t have the power to reward HIM as much as HE can reward me.

But I can do what I can so that our relationship is as pure and as deep as can be – from both sides, including from my side, so I wanted to make this clear and declare it and make this decision.

It feels freeing and clearing and it feels as if a burden has been taken off my shoulder, a new level of closeness is now possible between us.
It feels as if HE is pleased with my forgiveness, even though HE may not have been pleased with me being unhappy about something HE has done…

Don’t know if that makes any sense to you, my friend?

What do you think about it?

Have you ever felt wronged by GOD?

And have you forgiven HIM?

I hope and pray that this will inspire, encourage, bless and heal you.
And that THE LORD will bless you abundantly in all areas of your life; that HE will keep you and shine HIS face upon you and bring you peace. In JESUS’ name I pray. AMEN.