When you are waiting on GOD, praying and believing HIM for something, have you ever had the impression that it takes HIM too long to give you what you had waited for?
Or am I the only one?
I feel like everyone I know – including myself – is in a rush to get to their destination fast as possible.
And then what?
I came to see lately that we are like children in that regard.
We are GOD’s children, yes, but we are also childish.
Imagine a little baby – of course they must have the desire to walk, to express themselves, even children, they desire to be grown ups, to be allowed to do what they aren’t allowed currently, to be able to go places, stay up late, eat as much as they want to….
But imagine if they would pray and have their wish in an instant?
What if a baby could walk without having grown the bones strong enough to carry its body first?
What if a child could drive, go to clubs, spend all the money they want – without first learning to take responsibility, to watch out for dangers and last, but not least, to obtain the necessary skills to do what they wish to do – drive for instance…?
Isn’t it like that with us – in a spiritual way?
Don’t we often times need to grow into what we are praying to become?
Don’t we need to learn what it takes to successfully master the “new role” we are applying for when we pray to GOD?
Those of us who are desiring and praying for a godly spouse.
And this includes myself.
During this time, I have learned so much from GOD.
Through the encounters I had.
Through the things HE taught me, teachings I came across, inspiration from other godly people, from what I saw in other relationships (godly and ungodly ones), what I myself have experienced – before and after I got saved – / feedback I received (verbal and non verbal) ……….. the list is long!
But at the end of the list, I am not the same woman I was when I started asking GOD for a godly spouse.
Not saying I am equipped to be the perfect wife now.
However, I would be a much better wife now than prior to this process of learning…..
GOD helped me get rid of a lot of traits that I had that would have been in the way – in fact, that were in the way in my first marriage and I can see now that it was obviously more difficult to be married to me back then – because of who I was at the time!
And this is not just about the character traits or habits I had at the time and that I managed to overcome or change along the way – what I consider the most important aspect of the change towards a potential wife is the fact that I have GOD in my life now.
The major factor why my first marriage failed was that I wasn’t a believer at the time and that GOD wasn’t in this marriage.
I have written a little about it, perhaps I will go into more detail in another post (it might be helpful for some people who may be going through similar challenges in their marriage) – the main reason why my marriage failed at the time was that we were both unable to defeat the dark forces which were attacking us.
We – both my husband at the time and I – were under severe witchcraft attacks and I was even so unskilled at the time that I didn’t even have an idea what was going on.
I am not sure how much he was aware – as we didn’t even have conversations about this topic ever – but I am sure if he had known more about it and more about how to conquer these things, we would have had a much bigger chance to overcome these challenges and perhaps we would have even been able to stay together – who knows…..
One thing is for sure though:
Had I known what I know today, I would have had many more tools, means and methods to deal with problems – in a marriage and in life in general.
And these can be summed up with knowing GOD, but they are so much more than this.
Ever since I got saved almost 7 years ago, it’s as if GOD took me through a university!
My entire outlook on life has changed.
I didn’t even know that witchcraft and the devil are real 7 years ago, I was so ignorant.
And everything that I encountered, I had a completely different understanding of it.
I was spiritual, yes, but my spiritual understanding was completely distorted and twisted by all the lies of the enemy I had bought into – I had been exploring and studying pretty much every New Age method and doctrine and crazy teaching out there – you name it, I was into it: manifesting, meditating, hypnosis, trances, psychic readings, tarot, shamanism, whatever is out there, I had at least heard of it….. the only thing I hadn’t really studied, only touched the surface of it, was THE TRUTH, THE GOSPEL.
In retrospect, I am not surprised at all that my marriage wasn’t strong enough to survive the attacks.
I was a spiritual baby!
Not saying I am an adult now, but much more of it – and wise enough to know that I need to run to MY FATHER with every problem I have – not just in relationships, with everything – the marriage area was just one example.
What I am trying to say is – I came to understand for myself, that even though I was ready age-wise and from where I stood in life at the time, I was not ready spiritually to be a wife and to deal with problems occurring in marriage.
Even though I was a therapist and a lot older than most people when they get married….
But still not mature enough.
I believe it is like that with many things in my life – and probably in everyone’s life.
We are often not equipped to inhabit and fulfill the role we are “applying for” when we pray.
Yes, part of it comes with the role and with experiencing it.
But part of the process is also preparation.
And I came to see for myself that it wouldn’t have been possible to be married to me – to who I was when I got married the first time – and history has proven that this is correct, because this marriage failed.
So perhaps we can give GOD more credit?
Me, I will do my best.
Just like nobody would question that a child needs to grow strong enough to walk first, that someone who wants to be a professional in a certain area needs to study first and then be approved by an examination before they will be “let loose” to be a doctor, a lawyer, or a pastor for instance – just like these processes are in place for a reason, I believe that GOD takes us where HE takes us and that it doesn’t necessarily mean that HE is not answering our prayer or not giving us what we asked for.
Can it instead mean that HE is molding us into the person we need to become in order to be able to fulfill the role we are praying for….?
And can it then be that during the process and before we are ready to be that – HE is protecting us from becoming what we are praying for, because we wouldn’t be able to???
I have an example for this as well, I have seen it in the world, especially in the field of therapeutic work or coaching or counseling – but I have also seen it in the church area…..
When someone has attended and passed a class, they often tend to go “out there” too early – call themselves coaches or preachers and start a business or a church before they are “seasoned” enough to deal with all the challenges that come with it – and then their business fails – or they fall and trip over a scandal…..
A little bit similar to what happened to me and my marriage.
The more I think about it, the more I believe that many failures we experience in life come from rushing into what we believe we need to do or achieve, and we are not ready, not equipped for it…?
My conclusion is to trust GOD’s timing more.
Yes, I would still like for my prayers to be answered fast.
However, I also don’t want to fail (again).
So I will wait and trust GOD and trust HIM to give it to me when I am ready to be successful in it.
Trust HIS timing.
After all, HE said it, that HE is never late, so who am I to tell HIM so?
“For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.
What do you think, dear friend?
Did you have a time or situation in your life when you thought GOD was late?
Or when you rushed into something and then learnt that you hadn’t been ready for “it”?
Looking forward to hearing from you in the comments and wishing all of you a good start into a hopefully splendid new year 2023, where GOD will favour you and grant you your hearts’ desires!
I hope that this will inspire, encourage, heal and bless you.
And that THE LORD will bless you abundantly in all areas of your life; that HE will keep you and make HIS face shine upon you and bring you PEACE. In JESUS’ name I pray. AMEN.
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You are going the right direction Eva. Growing while giving over the things of life into God’s hands.
I pray you slip into the new year in the center of the path God has for you. My dad used to say “don’t go shaking the bushes on the side for a spouse”
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Hahaha, good one Gary😂
(Or Gary‘s dad)
I also wish and pray that next year will be a fantastic one for you!!!!
Thanks for all your support, input, inspiration and encouragement this year, our connection has truly blessed me and you and your family are in my prayers.
GOD bless you my dear brother from across the lake 👋🏻💕🙏🏻
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